I receive emails on a daily basis from an encouraging website and today I wanted to share because it really enjoyed it. For my readers who have suffered a loss or know someone who has, I hope you enjoy it too.
Sometimes its so hard to remember life as it was before our
loss. We try to "get back that feeling", but we can't. When
the bottom dropped out from below us, we were crushed, and
the healing seems to be an ongoing work, and we forget what life was
really like "before."
So, we begin to mark the calendar with "firsts." The first time
since it happened....the first birthday, the first movie, the
first time in church, the first vacation, the first holiday. And,
every event seems to be shadowed by the darkness of our loss.
We wonder how we are ever going to go on. Will it get any
better? Will the heaviness ever lift? Will laughter ever be
part of life again?
Our loss changes the entire constellation of our lives. That
fact will never go away. That is etched into our hearts forever.
But, the edges will soften, and events and people that enrich
and bring love into our lives will bless us so that our loss will
not always take a front seat, but will in time become part of
the tapestry of our lives that will add its own bit of special
beauty that we will wear with special affection forever.
If your heart feels like it's breaking in two today, remember
with patience and hope that your life will not always feel
this fragmented and broken. Hope will embrace your heart
and allow love to bless you as joy slowly returns. -Clara Hinton
I know, kind of depressing to read, right? I guess I enjoyed it because one year ago today I found out I was pregnant. When I look back, it seems hard to remember the joy from that day because my memories are overshadowed by the loss that we suffered. In fact, I went back and read my original blog to remind myself. I will never forget that day or seeing Christopher's face. I will always remember the thoughts going through my mind all day. I was on cloud nine. I never knew how much my life would change after that and how my life would depend on faith and hope. Faith that I would laugh again without feeling bad and hope that we would find that joy again. And also, love from a God that remains faithful through everything. I love the last sentence... HOPE will embrace your heart and allow LOVE to bless you as JOY slowly returns.
"..and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us." --Romans 5:5
